Dear Dad

My dear Dad

How r u those days?

I can’t remember when I sent my last letter to you. But I have had an idea to write a letter to you since few days ago.

Actually I have nothing special to tell you. I just knew that you don’t feel good recently. Too many things are bothering you, especially about my younger brother. Hmm…he has been really different from the person I knew before. About his opinion and future, I just can say that he is young. He was our little boy, and we protected he too much. Now he grew up, and he has his own opinion although we don’t agree with him. He needs to learn experiences from many failures from now. Then he will know how precious the family is. How short and difficult the life is. It takes time, a long time.

Then, I don’t know how ur feeling is about retiring. It is very embarrassing to say it but I still want to tell you “ it’s ur life, enjoy ur life from now. Maybe I can’t earn enough money for you. Well, you are doing hard in these 58 years; it’s enough. I should say thank you to you. You gave me lots of chances to get lots experiences. I’m not a really good girl I know. I spent extra money more than my younger bother. You gave us too much but you haven’t got the life style that you really want to have. You always adjust yourself to mom, brother and me. Well, ur lazy girl is gonna bother you for sure. On the other hand, I hope you will feel happy from the age of 60 years old.”

Finally, I have no idea why I wrote the letter in English to you. I know it’s really weird for you, even to me. Since I came back from Vancouver, I explain my emotion in English more than in Mandarin. Also, when I write sth in my deep mind in English, it makes me feel comfortable and calm. I will keep this habbit as long as I can. Of course, I had never thought that I would use English as good as now before I went to Canada. Thanks again, for all the memory from Canada, and English is my treasure.

Thank you for all your taking care.

This is the first time and the last time I wrote a letter only to you.

Do you know how difficult it is to start to type the first word? I decided to make an ending by myself. You may see it or may not. However, this is just noting my memory about you.

It has been more than a year since we said goodbye with each other.
I always miss you especially when I feel depressed. I asked my good friend, what kinda relationship between us is. Ok, I have no idea about what are you thinking about. In my case, I was very counted with you. As you know when we were in Vancouver, our families were far away from us. We needed to fix everything by ourselves. At that time, something happened in my family, I was really upset and don’t know what I should do. It was you that talked with me all night. Maybe it wasn’t really special, important and unforgettable to you. But anyway, you were very helpful to me.

I don’t know when I started to like you. When I realized it, I already came back here. I have no chance to ask you any questions, and tell you my feeling. If I can, I want to talk to you face to face.
Whatever the final answer is good or bad. Unfortunately, I have no chance anymore.

In the past year, so many things happened to me. When I felt depressed, the first person that I wanted to talk with is you. I miss you when I feel lonely and I need someone with me. Of course, the time and distance may change any feeling. Also it’s the reason I write this letter to you. I can’t miss you as much as I did before; I need my own new life. I can’t share some of my emotion with you. I use my way to miss you and like you even though I will never know do if you miss me and like me. Well, anyway it’s going to the end. I don’t want to bother you, which is the first thing that I need to learn. As I said before, I have so many goals that I want to get. I will concentrate on it from this moment.

Must say goodbye to you. Thank you for giving me a very good memory. I’ll be treasuring it for the rest of my life.