Random Thoughts

I went to gym on Saturday, finally. It was fun and tired. I couldn't stop my smile cuz I really enjoy my time with my friends and trainers in the gym.

I bought an English novel which name is "BJ2". I watched the movie with PeiYu already and movie was good. That's the reason I bought the book. Well, I have a little bit regret cuz the novel is really difficult to read to me… and it's much expansive than Chinese novel. In addition, it isn't in ELI so I don't need to hand in the project. No homework!! So…how can I finish the novel?! It's no reason to push me to finish it!

Well, Annie and I talked about “HE” tonight when I waited bus with she. Then, he shows around my brain again. What should I do to you? Sigh…go away please.

沈澱過後...

下班後，雖然還在跟SUSUMU扯著他的日文日記
硬是要他把羅馬拼音給交出來，雖然我早就看得懂六成以上的意思
胡扯瞎鬧了後，打了卡，下班
心情空空洞洞的，不想去上日文
走到公司後的咖啡廳，帶著一堆賀卡和我的日文課本
一個人點了個餐，聽著MP3
寫賀卡，雖然字醜的要死，搞不好明天我自己也看沒有懂
唸日文，雖然只是入門二，而且是追在老師後面很辛苦的
點了個澄汁鱈魚，不錯吃耶!!我發現，生氣了，食慾變很好
整份都吃掉了唷，雖然我不知道我用了多少時間
總之，我吃掉了，而且沒有""浪費""

看日文看到打瞌睡...好丟臉
只好快把賀卡寫一寫明天希望可以寄出去，好了心願
然後就坐車回家。
一邊看著電視...腦子裡還是那封信...那封讓我氣了個半死的信
好久沒有那麼生氣那麼生氣了
什麼時候??好像是從元元畢業後吧...
二年了...沒有那麼氣過，真傷身

那，沈澱了幾個小時的現在...感覺呢?
我也不知道
我還是很在意，只是不氣了
忘了要怎麼氣了...但是就是在意，有個東西在心頭在腦子揮之不去

副總說：你不是記性不好，你只是還沒有找到你想要投入的東西，要是你找到了，那一切都會很驚人。
但，如果我一輩子都找不到呢?
年紀大了，越來越記不住東西。回憶也記不住，感情也記不住，我連生氣高興都是來去超快
抓也抓不住，即使我想要留住那麼一點點感覺
這是好事嗎????????

煩...真得很煩

拜託...我又不是在做口碑的

媽的，簡單一件事就要搞得那麼複雜
知道什麼叫多頭馬車，你知道這在公司不會因為特權更比較好做事

老娘就是不想要特權才這防那防的
老娘要是有那麼專業
掯，我還要待在公司嗎?
老娘不會隨便拍的相片就去賣個十萬就好

倒底知不知道中間發生了什麼事
知不知道中間有多難做
要是那麼強，進公司，給你辦
你們的朋友我要幫你們小心這小心那的
我為什麼低低的下聲道歉

早上還不夠嗎
有罪該萬死嗎
老娘好歹也做過小小的設計
什麼叫尊重專業我怎麼可能不知道
但有沒有想有東西是我沒有辦法控制的

gmf d ....................... jzuv

Have a wonderful weekend.

我知道了唷!!
你們今天將會有個快樂的聚會，在離我很遠的地方。
好好得玩，一定很愉快，因為你們的感情那麼的好。

五味雜陳。我的心裡。

最近，又開始胡思亂想。
真受不了自己，過去的事，曾經很美好但也要畫下句點。
不能一直活在去，人生呀!!
我想，大道理我比誰都還會說，但無力的為什麼我做不到。

討厭這樣的自己。
這不是我呀!!這不是我呀!!

我要走出新生活，是該時候了不是嗎?!
美好的，美好的，過去了。
我要做的，再創出另一個美好。
過去的我可以，現在依然可以。

這一路，不就是這樣走過來的。
我想，我可以的。一定是醬子的。對!

Party, Party!

I talked with my younger sister tonight. She said that she would start to plan an X'mas party to her university.

Hmm...Yeeh, its Dec already!! Time's to fly.

When I heard "PARTY", I woke up momentarily. I used to have party twice a week or more than twice in my apartment. I had lots of fun at that time with my every friend. Although I don't drink a lot, I like to see them drinking. If you aren't there with them, you'll never know how much fun I can get. I did some foods to them, my housemates bought 24 or 48 cans beer, toshi usually bought ice cream, chips and something we need, shotaro and susumu brought strong alcohol, sometimes susumu cooked foods to us, fruits is peiyu's job......and......and.......and......

Oh my god, my memories likes movie and show up my brain. I can't stop it. Where am I? Taiwan? No way, I should have a party in my apartment!!!!!!! And I should drink honey lager and some wine.

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo, stop it!! I think I need to go to bed. Coz I'm crazy to think about the past........>_

The miss can infect everyone.

I don't miss you quite long time, but I start to miss you from two days ago, suddenly.

The feeling isn't good to me coz whenever I doing something in the office or at home. My brain continue to keep a place to miss you.

I don't like this feeling and I can't 100% concentrate on everything. As you know, I like to control everything about myself.

Sigh….

I should start my new life without you, every second.

English is much friendly than Japanese.

I took my second Japanese session tonight. Guess what! I can't understand more than 50% of class. Damn! What’s going on! I am like a little elementary school kid going to high school.

I thought English grammar is very difficult…oh, it’s still confused me for sure but I can tell you that Japanese grammar is amazing unfriendly than English. I dunno what should I do for my Japanese grammar. My brain is in the fuzzy after class still now.

Sigh, okay, I'm gonna take one more Japanese class on Saturday to help me to improve my Japanese. Anyway, I feel upset now. Some of my Japanese friends teach me how to understand Japanese!!!!! T_T PLEASE!!