Random Thoughts

It's has been long time that I didn't update my blog. What am I doing those days? Hmm...at first, I got another blog from messenger which name is "the space". I wrote most my feeling everyday in Chinese. So, I don't have other ideas to write my feeling in English here. Or, you cay say, shen, you are such a lazy girl!!!!! Well, yes, I'm.

I'm supering busy nowadays. I became a manager although it has only a colleague below me. You may say, how ur department small is!! Yes, it's really small but I still can get lot of pressure from it. If I can choose, I don't want to be a manager though.

Over work, try to keep awake, think my project over night, get up at early morning and go work around 4 am, those are the things that I did those days. On the other hand, I'm sure that I will keep the same situation in next three months until I finish my project.

Of course, I got tired, really tired. I try to lose my weight around three months already and I will keep doing it. When I just have small meal, little sleep and lots of pressure, I start to feel queasy and dizzy. It's going more serious than before. I meet my doctor once or twice a month, I told he my problems but my condition isn't going better. Orz...I'm gonna take a vocation around Nov. I guess after my project dead line, I need to take break.... long break. I need to recover my energy and let my body breath.

After I said goodbye to a guy who I liked. I control myself quite well. And also my family member are worry about I don't have any bf. Hmm....difficult question eh. In my case, I don't really need a guy with me actually. Of course, when I get depressed than I want to have "someone" with me at that time. I want to enjoy the single life right now. Well, sure, it isn't means that I won't get a guy. If a day, I meet "he" then I will follow my feeling...may date he?! I hav no idea...hahaha